haiz...i dont know where i went wrong..
yesterday was actually such a wonderful day for me...to see you and for everything that happened yesterday afternoon i thank god for it...i guess everything good thing has to end and yesterday was it...sorry for everything that ive done wrong...
to you...to everybody...im sorry...never knew how stupid i was until yesterday...how could i never have saw this coming...to actually believe in such dumb emotions...im sorry...
thanks josh for everything...staying by my side...and helping me...thank kien..and thanks mei...for helping me cope with it...and to the rest of you...i think its too many to write...thanks to all of you...you all rock...sorry if ive been an ass or anything...but thanks for sticking by me...
i dunno if what i did yesterday was right or wrong...
wanted so much to send you home but didnt think you wanted me to...so yea...went home by myself...you dont know how sorry i am about shouting yesterday...i was only joking...i never meant it to scare...never meant things to turn out the way they did...i was waiting the whole day before for today...why would i ever get angry...after such a wonderful day...well i guess its my fault again...sorry...
what happened between us...was something i never thought would happen...something totally unexpected...i never tot id ever..but i did...never thought anybody would for me to...and i thought you did...but well i guess i was wrong...guess you kinda grew on me...but hey i stand corrected...who would ever...a guy like me..no one..but although after everything that happened to me...i can safely say...that ive never regretted anything i did or said...cuz i meant it...and i dont go back on my words...so if anybody ever shows it to you or you ever come across it...well yea...you probably wont read it anywayz..
well...gotta get use to things lah...im over it...just want things to be the way they were before...when we first met...as friends...at least we were both happy...well as it goes...only time can tell...lets let nature take its course...and perhaps things will turn brighter...
just got back from studying at orchard with Jwong, josh, hughlyn...feel abit better...but yea...things still aint looking very gd at this point...dont know what to say...studied,played abit of pool...went home...havnt eaten yet...damm hungry...tomorrows my physics prelim prac..hope tomorrows a better tomorrow...
