Man its already more than 3/4 over. I just keep thinking what happens after this. I dont know..God i really trust you with this. Please help me. I would serve your ministry no matter what but i really need my prayers answered..I need to talk to you..
Today was all about my Shape. Ive been thinking abut how i can serve God. I know its weird, but lately God has been on my mind in ways i didnt expect. I mean ive slowly been having this feeling of needing to go to church and attend a CG. I just dont know where to find one with nice people...stupid right...yeah but then again its me...stupid Iain.
Then today, i was listening to my ipod in my car and suddenly i realised that i was skipping a lot of my songs. I jsut didnt feel like listening to any of them. I really felt like i wanted to hear christian music, so i just played my christian playlist. I know God is doing his work in me.
In employing your experioences to help God's ministry, one looks at afew things. Your family, educational, vocational, spiritual, ministry and most importantly your painful experiences. One thing i learnt growing up, is that God really uses your bad experiences to help people.
When i was young, i always wondered why i was so unfortunate to have been brought up in a broken family. And i even cried looking at some of my friends dads and mums who were so in love and complete. But it was years later that i realised that by having gone through those experiences, i could really emphatise with some of my friends who were going through the same thing. My friends who knew my past knew that when i was saying something, it wasnt a courtesy, "its going to be alright", I really meant it and lived through it.
I do miss you a lot. God only knows how much. But i know that everything that happened, happened for a reason. One obvious thing was that i had to slowly get in touch with God. And i honestly don't know if i wouldve if things didnt happen the way they did. I really need to talk to God. Ive got so many things i need to ask him. God please listen to me and answer my prayers. I would honestly do soooo much God.
Please also make Gl'amour a success tomorrow. Help me and my friends all get our steps right, not only right, but perfect. May tomorrow's performance be a dedication to you and all the wonderful things you've ever done in my life and the lives of my friends. I pray sam remembers eveything and can adjust to Mary poppins and that Gen remembers her steps and timing too. God you are truly everything.
Amen.
