Man i havnt fel so tired in a longggg time. My whoel body is heating up..im gonna ko for sure after this. God i just want you to know that despite my tiredness, i would always do devotionals and be with you before i sleep. Please be with me as i be with you. Let me feel you and hear you clearly..
Today was Romans 8:28. This is honestly my motto for life through my dark days.
"We know that God causes everything to work together for the good of those who love God and are called according to his purpose for them. For God knew his people in advance, and he chose them to become like his son."
I keep thinking about this verse, and i cant stop thinking about everything thats happening now. I know that Gods purposely bringing me through this. I know his reasons why and what ive done in the past. I jsut ask that heplease bring me through this and change me to be the man God wants me to be.
Silver is only pure when you can see your reflection in it. Similarly, when one has been refined through trials by fire, people will see Jesus' reflection in you. I know this may not be much, but this just seems to be like, God pointing me in a direction. Ive heard it from you, and i dont know. God please just straighten out all my thoughts. Im begining to understand what you mean by God will be shown unto the world through yourself. I just ask that God really changes me from the inside out.
James 1:4 reads "Perseverance must finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything."
it continues on, talking about how one should ask God for wisdom and when asking, be sure and have faith. God i ask you now. Please fill me with your wisdom and your words. I really want to get through this. Every small thing makes me crumble on the inside. I need you to fill my inside. Replace every crack and every fault. I need to be strong for not only me, for her, for you, God i pray that you please be my core. I dont know how else to describe it God.
I know you have a reason for doing all this. Please speak to me and let me know, comfort me and tell me whats ahead after all this. God i know that you are gracious, please let me hear you tonight and tomorrow and the days to come.
Gl'amour is this comign Sunday, God please help me improve til i can be just perfect. Youve already helped me improve tremendously, that even im amazed thinking back tonight. I couldnt have done it without you. I only wish that i could've remembered you and thanked you today when i made very big improvements.
I love you God, let me hear you.
Amen.
