Today is all about Love.
Its quite ironic...Love is something i had, love is something i lost. Love was my whole entire life.
I know that Love goes beyond just loving one person...Love means loving everyone. And i guess now i realise how important time is. Everyone has the ability to make more of something, money, food, shopping bags, but noone can make more time. When someone gives their time for you, they give up part of their whole life, something they'll never get back.
I know its ironic because i used to get so irritated when i didnt have my own time to do things. but i guess i shouldve still showed my appreciation about what wanting to give up all your time meant...well i realised how much that was and i'm sorry...Who cares...you're probably not going to read it or even talk to me anymore.
I just think that Life without Love is worthess. Paul says in 1 Corinthians 13:3 " No matter what i say, what i believe, and what i do, i'm bankrupt without love." I totally feel it. Life to me is just empty. Loving friends is 1 thing, loving God is another. I guess not so much empty as one having a void. God's love was meant to be complete and all encompassing. I dunno.
I know why God is doing this. I'm not ready, i just wish God could help me..answer my prayers. I feel like God is asking me to have faith in him. That when he's done his job with me, he'll get around to answering my prayers. God please be there for me through everything. I want to hear you and know you. But please God please don't let me down. I don't know what to do now but without you by my side, i'm just a blind man without his stick, trying to find his way home, alone.
Amen.
