Hai today was all about surrendering...
This is one of if not the most difficult things ive ever faced, facing and ever will face.
I have no clue what to do..I really need to talk about this to someone..hai..Am i supposed to just stop thinking about my future? is that what surrendering is? hai i only ask for 2 things now...my studies and you..hai..i wish i knew what to do..i feel like a blind man groping around trying to assemble a car...
I remember everyday i would ask god for one thing..one thing in jc, one thing in army..now i just ask for that one thign again..hai..my mind is so blurred i dont know what im doing anymore..the world just seems freaking surreal.
WILL ANYONE HEARING ME PLEASE TALK TO ME
God please send someone to me..please answer my prayers. God i dont know how to surrender everything to you. I dont know WHAT you want me to surrender and how im to do it. But if it will get me my answered prayers, God i would surrender myself to you day after day... I just ask that you please tell me what to do so that i may listen..Please let me know its you. I feel like im so lost and trying to reach something but i have no clue how to reach it.God i need you.God please speak loudly to me. Open my ears and my heart..
Amen.
