Man i dont know what i am doing..its so weird..i dont know if i did the right thing..hai all this is making me question life as a whole..
God knows everything you do and every choice you make..he plans all your tests and puts them in front of you..but i have no clue if what you do is right..or wrong..and what happens..hai this sem so far just seems to fuzzy and unclear..i dont know what is happening nor what should be done..if im studying enough or if i should be studying harder..everything is so blurry i wish i knew what to do or what i was doing..hai..
Anyway Day 8 was abit odd..save for what happened at night which i must say is one of the biggest decisions of my week 1..i know that there will be effects of this down the road..i just hope that i made the right choice tonight..hai..
Anw Jho is leaving for exchange..to be honest i've always found it hard to get close to him..like it was hard cause of him being..well him i guess..but tonight i really felt like i got closer to him..we all went to his house and a couple of us stayed to watch tv..who knew watching tv as a group could be so fun..well i never thought i'd miss him when he leaves but i really think i will...
Day 8 of my 40-day journey was all about God's pleasure...
I feel that i need to learn to commit everything to God, like in everything i do, it should be a "thank you God that i can do this." As i type, it just occurs to me how thankful one can be? even mundane things like walking on the streets..It just makes me remember that there are people like Ryan who, thank god won the fight with cancer but lost one of his legs. I really thank God i didnt have to go through the fight he did...I must remember to dedicate everything i can to God. Starting with ballare.
God everytime i dance, competition or performance, i devote them to you..starting with the 16th and G'lamour on the 30th...It may sound stupid but please bring my great grandma and my grand ma to sit next to you and watch me perform..
I ask that you help me improve my dance at a rate that only you can do, that i may be successful and excellent on the day itself. Let me dance my best and be the best for you..Let me not let Gen down or vice versa...All in all, i devote it to you.
Amen.
