Today marks the last day of my 40 day fast.
To be honest, i'm abit scared of what the world will be like after. I feel like in the past 40 days i always had this physical pillar that linked me to God. After today, i dont know..i'm scared that i'll feel lost. Like one man in an open vast field..
Well today for me was about serving God. After this fast ends, where do i stand? What am i going to do? Well one thing i know is that i want to serve God with every action i do. More than that, i want to remember God in every action i do.
God you have given me so many abilities and characteristics, each unique to me, each specially given so i can serve you. Both good and bad can be used to serve God. God you have given be gifts, gifts which i hope you allow to grow within me. Allow me to get a better grasp on them. You have provided me with a heart. A heart that loves deeper than one realises. I ask that you help me listen to my heart but at the same time, I ask that you plant your control chip in it, so that every voice of my heart, is one echoed with your blessings. You have granted me abilities that no one else has, and a personality that i can only call "iain-like". Finally God, you have and will continue to give me experiences that will shape my life. I ask that you please allow me to be the best i can be.
Help me with my days ahead God. I initially started off this fast, with the idea that by the end of 40 days, i'll have some miraculous change in me. that i'll suddenly be consumed and saint-like. I feel closer to God, but overall i still feel the same. God youve heard my prayers, you know my reasons for fasting. I ask that you please help me with my prayers and answer them. I commit everything into your hands God. Please help me.
Amen.
